“I am 1 in 8 and 1 in 4. Never did I imagine this would be my life. Never did I want this to be my life. I don’t think anyone would choose to go through these difficulties and challenges infertility and miscarriage brings upon your life.
I’ve talked about this before, but the moment I found out I more than likely would have to use #ivf to help us start a family I was traumatized. I felt ashamed of myself. I felt broken. I felt incomplete. I felt like I was a disappointment. I felt confused and I didn’t know why I had to go through all of this. I still don’t. I don’t see the reason and purpose of any of it, for any of us. We all yearn to be a mother, to feel the emptiness finally go away, and to express the love we have in our hearts for a child that’s not even born yet. I am sure we have all imagined what our lives would be like and some point in our life. Ever since I remember I’ve always imagined myself as a mom. So when my journey to become a mother started I never imagined it would be like this.
After we decided to change fertility clinics and drs we underwent our third embryo transfer and to our surprise IT WORKED. WE WERE FINALLY PREGNANT!
Dylan and I were over the moon and filled with so many emotions. When infertility is apart of your journey you spend so much time thinking about your future child. You dream about what they would be like, what they would look like. You dream about how they would look, what they will like to do. Whether they’ll look like you, your husband, or the perfect mixture of the two. Our dreams were finally turning into reality and then it vanished. Our dream turned into a nightmare. We experienced pain that nobody should ever have to experience. We lost our baby. We lost our dreams. We lost our hopes. We lost ourselves.
Nobody wants to be apart of the #1in8 and #1in4 communities but if you are you’re surrounded by the most amazing people. People who may not even know you but continue to pray and support you. They share love, hope, and support towards you and your journey. Their heart breaks when your heart breaks and they’re beyond happy when you are. They share your journey. You’re never alone.” @lacey_sevey