“Suicide. What is enough? Death is not the answer. I survived a severe suicide attempt, I spent 9 days in ICU, waiting to die. I overdosed and suffered an acute liver failure. Doctors initially gave me two days to live. I understand our pain cannot be measured, during my life many traumatic incidents defined me. My Father killed himself when I was 3 years old, causing the ripple effect. I was molested by a man, changed schools 7 times, shaking my foundations for relationships. I could never truly build a friendship. I was ridiculed and exiled by family and friends as I chose to fall in love with a man of color. Now a victim of racism, causing my heart to harden and my insecurities to grow. Feeling like I do not belong anywhere.I saw poverty at a new intense level, I used my minimum wage to travel to work by taxi and pursued an internship that provided me with the opportunity to complete my studies at University. I was an 18-year-old girl trying to climb the corporate ladder in one of the toughest industries of the world, Hospitality. I became compromised to my conditions, flourishing in a successful career but lacked the ability to apply the same value I do in Corporate to myself. I ended up in abusive relationships, where my nose was broken, my lower vertebrae fractured, right up until the point of anorexia, and self-medication where I fell into the clutches of addiction. The pain became so intense inside of me that I had to escape, I needed to get out of this body, it was physically starting to hurt me. My awareness today, is a walk of true “virtual” friendship. This is my real Facebook, no filter, or enhancements. It is my opportunity to write about a promise to each and every one of us, for I have seen it. This is not a self-help story guide. I believe in miracles, given by the name of Jesus Christ. This is a story, of the heart of a woman. Sometimes it was hard to be her, so I only advertised her best parts. Most importantly my story is about accountability for my everyday actions, regardless of my circumstances. It is transformation, learn to take control of your mind. SPEAK, do not choose death.” @veronica_brits_cpt